Monday, December 12, 2011.

I find it very funny, just because i am doing something not everyone has chosen to do, means it's something of my dream? similarly just because you are doing what most people are doing, it doesn't mean it isn't something you have always wanted to do isn't it? I'm not saying that art isn't my interest, but i'm not that sure either you know~

I've asked many people why they choose to do art, and usually their answer is that it's something they are good at since young.. i guess that's what they meant by talent.. but i don't think i have the confidence to say that, i wasn't born with that talent i must admit.. BUT that also makes me believe that talent is not everything.. there's still alot that you can do without talent..

i'm not so sure if i really like doing art, most of the time it's quite environmentally unfriendly.. it either become something, or it is just nothing.. but i do enjoy the thinking process.. thinking about anything and everything and believing that you have the ability to materialise it.. it feels good~ and artist being given such prestige and privilege is soo exclusive, it does feels good to be on the inside of it.. but to think of it as my interest and dream, i'd beg to differ~

i'm not very sure what exactly is my dream still, and maybe i'd never know.. not everyone finds their dream in their lifetime and i guess it doesn't matter~

but there is one thing i know, i like to work outdoors and making people feel happy with me around.. sounds like a clown, and indeed i do get that feeling in an amusement park.. maybe the question is what i can do in there~ ahahaha.. i believe there is something plan out for me now that i am stuck with social studies~ hmmm...